甘迦莹

Overall…a very…very bad day today…

I have a feeling I’m going to have bad dreams tonight.

Very…bad dreams.

 I’m a legal pedophile now… LOL! I’ll be the one driving the creeper van down the street. :) because I’m a professional creeper.

LoL today was a calm day …with my occasional screaming of course haha.

Thank you, Wifey! ♥

Thank you Lexus! ♥

Thank you Ashleigh! ♥ [everyone: please note the banana….]

Thank you Cindy Weng! ♥

Thank you Cousin Tammy and Joe! ♥

Thank you Mom and Dad ♥

They got me a Bamboo Fun drawing tablet #$%#$%&^@@. I can’t even…! ♥ (B

Yahhhh!! Into young adulthood!

we had brunch with my Godgrandmother because she came over from China. Also because my Godsister came down from Tucson for the winter and we haven’t seen my Godmother for a long time…[[so much God-liness XDD]]

Then my Godsister decided to take us kids to a movie and we decided to watch Tangled [[which I wasn’t particularly excited about at first…]] but it was surprisingly a good movie… :O When I saw the trailers, I was like ….eh boring storyline…And yes, it WAS a boring storyline. BUT! The character development, scene portrayals, and humor was awesome…AWESOME. Yay Disney.

This weekend was a huge splurge on Christmas gift shopping…lol. We spent up to about $600 in gifts… I love how hard it is to earn that money but how easy it is to spend it. :/

Tomorrow’s the big day— THE DAY I TURN INTO A LEGAL PEDOPHILE. [[Lol…well not really…only if I decide to hit on 17&under kids….then that would be pedophilic LOL XDD]] But I honestly don’t even feel 18…HECK I still feel 15 [&& my mom feels that way too XDD—that I’m still 15] It’s okay though, I don’t really want to grow up anways ^^

I’m actually really glad that my birthday is in the winter~ cuz even college, I can come home and spend my birthday with my family :D

I finally [[…FINALLY]] watched Inception [at Ashleigh’s today]. While hearing all these good things about it, I had high expectations for it…and the movie met them lol XD

Awesome movie overall [[except the ending was a bit frustrating]]…

And throughout the movie, I kept calling out stuff that I thought would happen in the movie…and it DID happen lol XDD …so I kept ruining the movie for myself…ish [[not really…]]

The actions scenes and effects were TOO COOL. Hahahaha.

Getting sick…I think from all the stress I had this week plus the lack of sleep and plus the lack of proper meals. LOL I see how I’m going to be in college without my family’s daily support….man I gotta start getting independent…

Will be uploading some interesting sidewalk chalk doodles later~

Urggghh…thinking about dying my hair?

finally crashed. It was warning me for some time now that it was GOING to crash…and then it finally did. So now…I am without a laptop of my own lol (and I’ve been leeching off the family laptop (which my sister uses a lot…) and my mom’s computer). EFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF.

Ummm…lots of weird occurrences this week…some good, some bad.

This is going to be a uber busy winter break…

I’m aiming for finishing AT LEAST 3 art pieces before winter break ends and we have a HUGE AP lit project due really soon after we start second semester (I believe second week of school?) and my group wants to finish everything during winter break. Thus I must finish and analyze my novel within the first week of winter break. Ehh..

My life won’t allow me to have any breathing time… D:

I came home…determined to finish two research papers before dinner…
I was sitting at the computer and it was 1:30
Then suddenly I woke up and it was 6:00 lol
And I got a horrible ache on my neck cuz I somehow fell asleep in a weird position at my desk…
I had no idea that I even fell asleep…

Lol what if I’m like this at college? I’d be walking and then suddenly I wake up in the middle of the road three hours later LMAO.
PLEASE. If you find Zaneta down on the road somewhere, please return her back to me…:P
I lose myself a little too easily haha

my head hurts so much…

I’m finding out…a lot of things that throws me completely off-guard…

Well first a lot of things about the “guy from two posts ago”…which I cannot even…argh =.=

and then I found out that my first ex-boyfriend officially turned gay three months ago…

I mean…SERIOUSLY….WHAT? It was only for two years that I didn’t really talk to him and he changed that much-……………………………WHAT?

………But I may be part of the reason why he’s gay now…because of how I treated him four years ago…D: I don’t know…

Lol but he did mature a lot…I can tell by the way he acts/talks. And he actually provided a lot of comfort and advice for my problems (because for some reason…I just spilled them all to him…I don’t know why…I kind of felt like he had the answers I needed…?). I kind of feel better for my situation with “guy from two posts ago”.

Speaking of the “guy from two posts ago”…I’m really worried…I’m honestly really  worried….acghhh I don’t know what to doooo…

we’re celebrating Christmas European style~! :D

We hung chocolates on the trees and are gonna eat them everyday :B (wrapped chocolates of course…)

confused…D: So I came home today and took a nap…and I guess I was thinking about it so much today that I kinda a dream about it and I woke up wondering a bout a lot of things….

First off…WHAT exactly did he do that he won’t tell me? He makes it sound so bad…like it’s something so unforgivable that nobody can know…I keep asking why he can’t tell me and he keeps saying “Reasons” and “I just can’t” [both extremely vague answers…] And I’m wondering…if the reason why he won’t tell me is because he doesn’t want me to see him in that kind of light after me knowing….I don’t know…But because he won’t tell me what’s wrong and seeing him in such a state…I get so worried…D: And even though I really want to know, I’m holding myself back from prying too much because it seems that what happened really affected/hurt him. And me prying would only make it worse…

Another thing…why…did he initially talk to me when he decided already that this was something that he can’t talk to me about…? If apparently I’m not the “right person to talk about it to”…why did he tell me something was wrong in the first place? This only leaves me worried…when I don’t even know what I’m worried about…

And I keep wondering why he keeps mentioning the past…He claims that he no longer has any lingering feelings for me…so why does he keep bringing up the “what if”s? And why…call it a “date” instead of a “hangout”…? It’s putting my head in a mess and I can’t think straight…D:

There’s so much I want to know but can’t ask…because 1) I don’t think that I’ll really get an answer out of him and 2) I’m scared to know what the answer is…

Well…these are all just my personal worries anyways… :/ so they’re not really important. I just really hope that everything works out for him so that he’s not tormenting himself anymore…

because we get to eat delicious hot pot like this~:

MMMMMMMMMMM~

AND TODAY!…I found my new love for fishcake XDD

and now I present you…the order of my beloved foods:

1. Orange Chicken ♥♥♥♥♥♥
2. Swedish Fish ♥♥
3. Fish Cake ♥♥
4. Dum Dums ♥
5. String Cheese ♥

AND ALSO TODAY! I found that I absolutely hate chocolate ice cream except for Haagan Daz Chocolate/Dark Chocolate ice cream….eaten with a knife. And it HAS to be eaten with a knife, or I won’t like it. IT’S DELICIOUS. :D

TODAY IS TUESDAY!

and Tuesdays means Art night ♥~ except today is special;; we spent about three hours setting up for the Winter Arts Festival :D

AND FINALLY…we have earned the rights as AP Studio Art students to get an entire pannel to ourselves. WOOO!

except most of us weren’t even sure if we had enough art pieces to fill up an entire pannel lmao. unlike alex who needed two pannels because of his HEEE-UUGE pieces lol XD [but they look better larger :P]

AND NOW! I must finish two pieces within these three weeks….and with all the studying I’ll be needing to start for finals…I don’t know how this is going to work.

Goodbye my beloved scarce free time T^T